I can't breathe with you so angry

Are you gone?
Or just waiting?

Biding your time?

Strategizing the way to make me feel what you think I deserve?

What I did to you?

This is Terror.

Why didn't you show up for her?
And why did you blame me?

Flip a little bullshit in the air, making excuses
And then just disappear?

I hear you--
And I understand
But still, how could you?

I don't want to get over this.
And I don't want to remember.

I'm sick.
Hurtling through panic attacks
My face to the wall at work so no one sees.

Please