When I said "I do"

I meant it.

I looked at you.  Longer than you think I did. And I saw you. In all your complexity and fucked uppery. 

And I said "I do" 

And I knew that this could be coming.  Based on what you'd choose to do.

And I said "I do"

Because I believed in you.

I believed in your strength. And I believed in who you wanted to be.

Ive already said my goodbyes.  A thousand times.

I don't care anymore.

I said "I do"

I gave you that. That part of me. Its gone now. Its done now. You still have it--but its all out of me. And I never want to see you again.

Im done.

But I still believe in you.

Because I said "I do"